Poetic License: ‘Security (Seguridad)’

PHOTO PROVIDED Joe Pacheco
(From the Mama Carmen Suite)
On my ninth birthday
Mama Carmen used some of her money
to chip in with my mother and aunt
for a New York Giants baseball outfit,
complete with first basemen’s lefty glove,
Giants cap, National League baseball
and the Louisville Junior Slugger bat
bearing Mel Ott’s signature
she claimed as her special gift to me.
On that hot July Friday evening
our apartment was filled
with grownups dancing and sweating
and drinking beers and sodas
that were kept cool in the bathtub
in the kitchen: the porcelain top
that usually served as kitchen counter
and utility surface had been lifted off
and stored when the iceman plunked
two huge blocks of ice into the bathtub
and picked them swiftly and viciously
into smaller pieces.
Followed by envious cousins and friends,
I spent the evening prancing through the apartment,
my flannel uniform wrinkled and soaked with sweat,
clutching the baseball with the mitt on my right hand
and swinging the bat in my left,
and I fell asleep at last with the other children
in the bedroom next to the kitchen,
ball clutched in my right hand
and bat held tightly in my left …
then wakened in the middle of the night
by a light in the kitchen, shouting in Spanish,
and horrific high-pitched squealing
to find the bat missing
and Mama Carmen
moving with the speed of tropical light
pulling a huge rat out of its escape hole
by his tail and hurling him
into the open bathtub
as the rat screeching in terrible treble
kept slipping on the ice left in the tub,
trying in rodent panic
to scamper up the sides to safety
until Mama Carmen wielding
my Mel Ott Junior Louisville Slugger
like a machete on a coconut, and shouting
–¡COJA, RATA SINVERGÜENZA, COJA!
bashed his brains in with two brutal blows!
I dared not look inside the tub
but like the rest of the family
who had rushed to the kitchen,
I shuddered in awe at the sight
of our tiny, fat, illiterate abuela,
riddled with rheumatism,
reeking of BenGay,
holding a bat now sticky and splattered
with rat’s blood and brains
covering the Louisville label
and half the Mel Ott signature,
towering over the tub,
immense and radiant
with the power and triumph
of having protected her family
once more, as she had done so many times —
before the Navy came to defend Vieques
by taking over two thirds of the island
and removing her
and one third of its people.